Lost is a one-shot written by a terrible writer for Frostflower's writing contest. 

The one-shot Edit

I was such a mouse-brain.

Such an mouse-brain.

I didn’t realise in time. I guess I was too wrapped up in my own feelings to notice his, or remember anything he said.

He kept telling me about his dreams for a world of peace, for all the clans and others alike. He told me about how he was going to use the power of knowledge to change the world for the better. I never paid attention. What was his dreams to me? I loved Ash to much to notice him. His dreams were nothing but talk, until now.

I regret it so much. Well, I guess I regret everything now. I regret falling in love with Ash. He had a she-cat back where he came from to go back to, a she-cat he actually knew he loved. A she-cat that wasn’t me.

I regret making friends with Bonnie, getting so close to her only for her to be snatched away from again.

And most of all, I regret ignoring him. He was the only one left now. And I never realised how important he was, how important he was to me and how important I was to him. I guess I never cared.

I’d been lost ever since Ash went home to Misty, and I’m still lost now. I tried hating her, but I’d never met her, and when I did I couldn’t help but like her. I tried hating Ash but i can’t bring myself to do it. I tried hating Bonnie, but she was gone before I had the chance. I tried hating myself, but every time I end up lying in my nest outside, staring at the stars with tears trickling down my face wondering why I’m still alive.

And then i thought of the one cat left- him. Thistlewing.

I took everything out on him, my anger that turned to bitterness, my sadness that turned to depression, my jealousy and confusion, which became insanity and turned on me, controlling me. I wasn’t Lilyfrost anymore- I was a shell of what was once a pretty, happy young she-cat named Lilyfrost, now inhabited by feelings raging out of control. My world was dark, but he did his best to bring light to me.

I barely remember what he said. I wish I’d paid more attention. I don’t know how I’m thinking of him like this now that he’s gone, when I couldn’t imagine myself thinking about him like this before.

How he lived through me, I didn’t know. He endured it all- me raging, screaming, shouting, hissing, crying, at him- and seeing me cutting. Yes. I did that. I drove stones into my paws, every day. I was too lost to find direction again, but he was like a path- he brought me back to the world, only to make me fall back again.

He left, only yesterday. Left the world. I didn’t believe it. i didn’t want to believe it. I wanted to believe anything else instead of it. First Bonnie, now him? My world was falling apart, and he wasn’t there to fix it together like he always did.

I miss him. I miss everything about him. His smile, his eyes, the funny way he runs, the way he argues with his sister Bonnie about the she-cats she chose to be his mate, how his plans always ended up ruined… And how he acted as a light, a light that helped me see through the darkness of myself.

I didn’t want to admit it at first. I scolded myself for believing so- I loved Ash, why would I him? But now I know for sure. I’m lost. Utterly lost. I loved him, and he loved me, and I realised too late.

It would’ve been a perfect ending for us- I’d’ve been old, he’d’ve been old. We’d’ve had kits, a home of our own, where both of knew exactly where we were heading in our worlds. But I had to ruin everything.

I’m such an idiot.

Now I’m lying on in my nest, tears streaming down again. I didn’t try to stop them. There wasn’t any point.


It’s him. I don’t know if I’m imagining it, but I wasn’t going to think more of it. I felt him sitting beside me his tail entwining with mine. I couldn’t see him, but I didn’t care. All that matters is I know he came, even if it was only my imagination.

“Lilyfrost…You don’t have to cry.”

“I can’t…” I whisper back.

“Just smile. You look a whole lot better doing so.”

I reached out to him. But he’s not there. He’s gone. He’s gone. g o n e.

Tears threatened to spill again, but I wiped them away. I looked in the lake, and smiled. I felt his head on my shoulder, encouraging me.

He’s not gone forever. He may be, but he won’t to me.

I may have been lost, but I’m not now.

A/N Edit

Note: this is the modified version of my pokemon one-shot. To see the original check on my wattpad account gamerkitty6274 one-shot lost, or through my POKEMON ONE-SHOTS! story. welp

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